Bad blog mommy!

I have seriously been neglecting my duty as a blogger lately and been posting super short posts really with not a huge update on life! So I guess from taht you can deduct, its been a pretty hectic last few weeks! So here goes the fill in:

Shane had his 15 month old check up last Friday. He is 34 inches and 26.4 lbs! BIG BOY! He is golden on all the physical movements he's supposed to be doing but I addressed my concern about how little he talks. He was a late babbler when he was a baby so I don't know if this is following that pattern but I'd much rather be safe than sorry and if he is having trouble talking, I want to get it check out ASAP. I've decided to call Early Intervention and have him evaluated to be on the safe side. I'd much rather be overly cautious on this than denying he might have some trouble and letting it go too far. Best case scenario is that he just needs a push in the right direction and I need some tips to help him and worse case is there is actually a developmental issue but at this age it will be a much better outcome if he is diagnosed and we get him in with a speech therapist. He is smart, that I cannot deny. He figures things out quickly and has already shown an interest in puzzles. He brings me objects when I ask for them and he shows desire to want to communicate with me. To be perfectly honest, my biggest fear is autism. Matt's youngest brother was diagnosed with Aspbergers 3 years ago so that is always in the back of my mind since we don't know what causes autism. So other than that, things have been great with my bug. He is growing SO much and learning to do new things every day! He LOVES to eat. I talked to Matt about it and his reaction was "My poor wallet". I guess its payback for his teenage years!

Speaking of the hubbs, we don't have much longer till R&R! Its definitely hitting me and the anxiety and anticipation has been driving me wild! I have been really trying to push myself during my work outs and trying to do something every day instead of every other day. I started tanning to fix my horrible tan lines from taking Shane in the pool. The next week or so I have everything planned out to what day I get the car washed (which HOPEFULLY will be fixed by Tuesday) to getting my pedi/mani. I am trying my hardest to stay busy which has been a struggle since I do have a lot to do just not really things I want to do. School has been kicking my ass lately. I have NEVER had a class where I've had so much work to do in such a short period of time not to mention I have to have my finals turned in early since the weekend they are due happens to be when Matt and I are away in Maine with NO internet connection (not that I'm wanting to bring a laptop anyway :) ). So in the next say week and a half I have to do three weeks worth of school work including two final projects and get myself ready for seeing my husband again for the first time in 6 months. I need a drink just thinking about it!

Update on my poor Corolla: The other driver was found negligent in the accident so I paid no deductible and it didn't affect my insurance rates. I was so thrilled when i got the copy of the police report that he had placed her at fault even though no citation was issued at the scene. So right now my baby is being fixed but the adjuster made some mistakes and not all of the parts were ordered to fix it so now I am waiting on the supplement from the other drivers insurance. I dropped the car off a week ago so I am getting anxious to have her back!

So really that's it for now! Stayed tuned...

I just want him home

I've had enough.

I want my husband back.

I want to know he's safe and all his limbs are attached.

I want to feel his arms around me.

I want our family to be a family again.

I don't want my son having to point to pictures and say "dada". I want him to say "dada" to his daddy.

These last few weeks before R&R have DRAGGED on and I cannot find enough to keep me busy. I feel like I'm losing my mind a little bit. I have NEVER felt this anxious or stressed out in my life. I just keep praying for patience and peace.

Slave to schoolwork

I am busting my butt to get my degree finished so this is a typical image of me. If I'm not running or running after my little one, I'm camped out working on school work. I have 3ish weeks before all my finals are due which will just in time for the hubs to come home. Hopefully that will keep my motivated and focused... ya, right.

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Thermal lunch tote $14

I have used mine that came in my starter kit quite a few times already! It's perfect for us mom's on the go!

Weekender Tote $72

Perfect for those unexpected getaways!

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Shane's First Haircut

Yep, I did it. I cut off the curls. He was started to get knots in his hair and it was just way out of control. It took me 3 months to get to this point and I'm really glad I just went with it and didn't take him to an actual hairdresser. I just ambushed him in the tub while he was distracted.

So yep, that's it! He looks so old now!

Kennebunkport

One of my favorite places in the entire world. I have been coming here since I was little and I can faintly remember walking over the bridge into town and the toy shop where I would buy little silly things from.

This is now Shane's second time here although last time he was only 3 months old and slept through the majority. I love being able to show my son these places I spent so much time at during the summer. It's this whole life completing a circle kind of thing that gives me the chills.

(And the first picture of Matt and I on the left side of my blog-is next to that toy shop I talked about. It was taken during his R&R in 2007)

Mamarazzi Monday #3

As promised, our third Monday mamarazzi picture!

Running on 2.5 hours of sleep

I know I said I didn't want this blog to be a sympathy blog or me feeling sorry for myself, because I'm not but its just been one of those weeks. Well past few days really. With the car accident and feeling totally overwhelmed with school as well as a few other situations, I would really love it if I had my husband here to support me. I need a hug and to hear "baby it's all going to be okay".

Its been a bit since I've heard from the DH. I know he's been really busy with his mission and everything that's going on over there so I don't blame him. It's always these lapses in communication when something goes wrong. It's like clockwork.

So I am going to put my big girl panties on and deal with it, like I always do. I don't have the time to break down or give up.

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”

My poor Corolla

My BRAND NEW CAR had a boo-boo today. Technically I hit her, I had no other choice. She pulled out from a stop sign/flashing red light when I was driving down a MAIN ROAD. Thank goodness I had already slowed down so I only hit her going maybe 25 instead of the normal 40 mph. The police haven't put anyone at blame (yet) but I am sure going to fight for her insurance to totally cover me. She should have been paying attention and looking. If she had actually looked, she would have seen me. My car is not hard to spot and while that intersection isn't the greatest, everyone in my town knows you need to be careful.

The most important thing is that Shane is totally fine. I have been having some neck and shoulder soreness from tensing up when we hit but so far Shane has shown no effects at all. God was truly looking out for us that day. If I had been going any faster, I may not have walked away from that situation (she would have t-boned me) and that is a scary enough thought for me to truly be sure that He was looking out for us.

So here's some pictures of my poor car. I am already itching to get her fixed!

Bad blogger...

Apologies for the lack of blogging lately.

Last week was a FUBAR of school, work, and daily life. I barely had time to think never the less blog. This week has been significantly less hectic but I'm been attempting to find the marbles I lost last week which has been quite the process. Here we, Friday, and about 5 WEEKS till R&R(!!!!!!!!!) Can you tell I'm just slightly excited???

The next several weeks are going to be tad bit insane as well. Sunday-Monday night bugger and I are heading up to Maine to visit my parents while they are on vacation. I would have LOVED to go up the whole week like we did last year but their time share room is just way too small for all of us. So we are just going to go up for two days. I could spend a lifetime in Maine but Matt and I will be back up there for our romantic getaway in just a few weeks. The In-Laws will be visiting the 16th-whenever (not sure what is planned) but I have a lot going on that week too with appointments and such so I probably won't see them much. The following week is the BEGINNING OF AUGUST which means preparation for R&R will be in effect.

C25K is going well. I am really enjoying running and looking forward to it the days that I do. I haven't worked in a workout every day just yet because I don't want to overextend myself or exhaust myself and then give up. I haven't noticed the number on the scale go down (actually I think I've plateaued) but I have noticed a difference in my shape and how clothes fit so I am trying to judge by that. Still have been off diet soda (YAY!) and I have the occasional decaf coffee. But I have found a friend in my own Arnold Palmer with green tea and lemonade (both Crystal Light packets) and I drink a lot of that on top of the massive amounts of water I've been inhaling. The heat we've had has made it easy for me to take in the recommended amount of water and I can feel a huge difference when I am not properly hydrated.

So that's it for now. I have the house to myself next week so I will try and update when I can!

Mamarazzi Monday: Week 2

Spending a few minutes chilling out on a hot, hot day in Boston. Shane got to meet his second cousins Nils whom we haven't seen in over 10 years!

Happy Independence Day!